Showing posts with label UPG. Show all posts
Showing posts with label UPG. Show all posts

Sunday, December 20, 2015

UPG about owls and Cernunnos and fall foliage

Been watching this you tube art scene.  While it inspires me to try something similar, within my talents using acrylics, this one in particular hit me.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qhdqW1UBilY

I see Cernunnos at the bottom of the tree.  The Fall foliage is part of my vision.  The owl in this painting is feminine though.  She is her own person but with him.  I get a fey component, due to visions of David Bowies Labyrinth in my head.

I think I ran into her before, when I was young.  I think she's the next stanza of the poem, Lady of the Night.

What I remember:

Here me now
First Lady of the Light
Drink for me now
The cup of life

Here me now
First lady of the night
Drink for me now

Seems to tie in with this post
http://paininthebum.blogspot.com/2015/04/celts-cauldrons-and-grail-and-old-dream.html

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Ponderings about Columbia, and Rosie the Riveter.

I'm half asleep as I write this.  So who knows what or how this is going to come out of my head.  You have been warned....

John Halstead blog, that he linked on Google plus(Devotional practice with the world at it's center) and the comments on google plus, got me to pondering about Columbia.  She is America's Patron Goddess.  It also helps that I am running Scion, and Columbia is one of the Gods in it.  You can read about Columbias history here:http://xroads.virginia.edu/~cap/liberty/origins.html

I was pondering last night, that I do feel that Rosie and Columbia do qualify for Deity status.  I am more comfy with them as gods then I am of Aines Otherfaith, or the Pop culture stuff.  Columbia has a history(very recent as compared to other Gods) and granted she's seen more of an inspiration then full on devotional, but there is a definite presence.

Rosie also has a presence.  A bad ass, go ahead and try to mess with me one.  She knows what she wants and isn't afraid to get it.  She was forged in war.  She's less ethereal and mental than Columbia is, and more earthy, passionate and lusty.  Though I guess Columbia was also forged in war.  I guess it's her Greek ancestry that makes her feel so distant.

Now I know it can be argued that these are thought forms.  But I think there is more to it.  There is more oomph to these, then just art and the meaningful feelings that come with it.

Dunno, would I consider these two Gods, Yes.  I also feel there is more authenticity to them being Gods then the other arguments I've heard in pop culture Paganism debate.

Saturday, February 22, 2014

God Phone and sensitivity

I hear a lot, on how special people are that are psychic.  I hear the term muggles used and other non Harry Potter stuff used, to distinguish between us Pagan sensitives and those that aren't.  I call bullshit.

We aren't special, every human has it.  Some of us just have more practice.  Then others are just more delusional and believe our own bullshit.

Humans are animals.  We have our 5 senses.  We also have our instinct, especially if we don't kill it off with self doubt, coated in logic.  That sense is called intuition and "gut".  Those uh oh feelings.  That person is creepy feeling, but you can't put your finger on it.  Don't go out today, and you find out why.  Or you can "feel" that a dangerous storm is brewing.  Or that inner voice that tells you to call someone you love, but you can't figure out why, but you find out later they needed someone.

None of these are special.  They are tools that we have available to us.  Psychics and those with God phones aren't special, they just have more practice at trusting the crazy shit that comes to us, and understanding we will get the why's later.  We are no more special than the potter who can make bowls and mugs, and other amazing stuff.  We are no more special than the person who can do engineering.  These are all tools and skills.

God phones, is intuition done with more time and more trust in yourself.  I learned by talking initially with the trees.  I learned how to do that by starting free writing.  The key to God phone is your subconscious and your imagination.  You need to learn to discern from your imagination, and from the oomph stuff that is given to you.

One of the things that I learned to discern from that is how much color and noise is given to me.  My imagination gives me color, but not full Technicolor.  The voices are richer.  The Gods have voices like the trees, only deeper.  I can feel the long view in what they give me.  My voice is like a ferret in response and more high pitched.

I figured this out by reading Laurie Cabots Power of the witch.  I adapted her 5 steps to getting to the alpha state.  One of the things in there says you get to it by day dreaming, and reading.  So I used my little man on the shoulder I got from my owies in my childhood to analyze when I entered that state.  Then I practiced going there at will.

A con though.  You can be too sensitive.  I found that out in MS.  I would get panic attacks and see blue lights flashing.  Later on, I saw a cop car.  I was too sensitive.  Yahweh stuck a filter on the back of my head and shook his head at me.  Steps on the ground aren't always an incoming earthquake, so you may need to shield and center and ground more, if you are getting that way.

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Response to Tess

I wanted to take some time before replying to you.  Then life happened and I had to deal with my own personal drama.  So I do apologize if it has taken me some time to get back to you.

I appreciate the apology over your analogy of the 40.  I hope that others understand your contriteness and that things can be forgiven and forgotten.  As I was reminded when I was angry over it, by the powers above, I've been stupid too and forgiven by others, I should do the same if an apology is rendered. I hope that you and Aub tea can also similarly talk it out.  As well as Das Heirdha, and others.  Through conflict better understanding can come about.  I hope this can be used for good.

I think the bigger and more grievous conflict, was the indication of your doing it wrong.  I understand and respect your experience Tess.  However, I would like to remind you, you are not the only cane waving elder around:)  No kids need to get off anyones lawn right now.

From my Gods in response to your offer to pour libations.

They appreciate the offer.  They would prefer other gestures.

Loki:

Go help someone instead.  Go babysit and give a special needs mother a break, so that she may take a nap, a shower, go on a date, and find some sanity.
Listen to someone who needs to vent.  It does not need to be the level of strays that she takes in, but listen, and offer succor.

I am busy and lessening my load is more appreciated.

Morrigan
Garden for the bees, the butterfly's etc.  It makes the fey happy.
Help your local Prison Chaplain
Project Innocence
Hug your local soldier.  Hug your local vet.

Cernunnos

He likes the Fey, butterfly Garden as well.  Or give some apples to the deer.

The Unknown Goddess who may be a conglomeration

Frith making.

Understand that to me she isn't a queen.  Oh and dear have a cup of tea, sit down, and put your feet up.  Have you eaten today?

Now, that is out of the way.  Interfaith love is imp to her.  There is more work to be done, and it needs the help of Christians.  The homeless still need homes, the hungry need to be fed, etc.

That is what they would prefer instead of libations.

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Snakes

I ran across these in Ms.  My UPG says they come from a Native American heritage, but that is my gut and this is all UPG.  The first one, and I can't remember why he showed up, was in a leather jacket, acted nice,but my instinct said be careful.  He asked for a drink of my sweet tea and I shared.  I went to take a drink, but I stopped myself, and poured it out on the ground.  While doing so, I saw some sparkly energy in the drink.  He had put in venom.  He was amused when I said that.  He left later.

I remember why the first one showed up.  He wanted to know where a friend of mine lived.  I refused to give him that info.

The other one I saw, was in a full headress and older.  He was trusthworthy, and had a different personality.

The Silver ones

I do not know what if any tradition these originated in.  I do not know if I'm the only one to see them.  I saw them when I lived in Massachusetts, and I saw them in Washington.  I have seen them in KS, but they felt different.

They when I see them, are silver, usually on the edge of woods, elves and wolves.  In ks, they are silver Native Americans and wolves.

They like cream.

I do not know what their purpose is.  I have seen them, I feel a closeness.  I have felt them be protective.

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Mum, The Goddess

If it isn't clear, I am writing down my impressions.  None of the Gods I have talked about(other than Morrigan) have a lot of lore to them.  This is a beginning and they wanted me to write about how I saw them and felt them.

Color, Silver.  She has no name.  None that I can figure out at least, at this time.  She just is mum.

I encountered her first in a dream.  I was in highschool, and was sent these dreams.  I was involved in a battle(not a traditional battle, maybe battle is the wrong term).  Anyway I had a thing I was fighting.  It was a giant black wolf, that would go out and eat people.  Had a lot of stealth.

I was given Merlin to teach me and I had to put together a sword, with a pencil in its hild(oooh can you get the symbology here??? lawl).  IF I said this poem blue light would come out of the sword(no it wasn't thundercats ho) and destroy my enemy.

Here me now first Goddess of the light
Drink for me now
The cup of life

Here me now first Goddess of the night
The rest has been lost in a successive dream


In a prior dream, I was walking with Merlin and he asked me to recite the poem.  I felt it slowly being pulled out of my mind.  THen I woke up and this is what I am left with.  The lesson girls, boys and what have you, is write down the imp dreams.  Notes are imp.

That dream led me to non BTW Wicca.  I loved the simplicity of Scott Cunningham.  He has a gift for making hard things simple and elegant.

Anyway, she is the same Goddess in Wicca.  I also saw her in the High Priestess when I went to see whether I wanted to be more traditional in Gardnerian coven.  She is more Queenly there, vs the informal mother I found in Non BTW.

But while she is in Wicca, she isn't limited there.  The holiest vision of her, that I saw, was the Orion nebula.  http://hubblesite.org/gallery/tours/tour-orion/

I sense her in the air, especially in the moon and space.  I sense her in the water, and all around me.  I do not know if she is Omnipotent. I do not know if she is the White Goddess from Robert Graves or if he only got a small tiny glimpse of her.  I just know that she is.

I do not know if she is Asherah.  I only know the UPG I have of her.  What I have of her, is infinite patience.  She feels motherly.  She is warmth and hearth.  Though mess with her kits and she will come down on you like a mother bear.

She seems to be connected with the fey in a way as well.

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Cernunnos

Green.  The deep forest.  The smell of leaves and trees.  Fall. Spring.  Antlers.  Hounds.  The call of the hunt.  The chase.  Life and Death.  The smell of green.  Jethro Tulls songs from the wood.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P2MgU7PNHgw


Academically not much is known about him.  He is on the Gunderstrap Cauldron.  He is known to the Continental Celts.

He is also another Primal God.

Morrigan

A tall, black haired, sensual, powerful, take charge type of woman.  One who exudes a cool exterior.  She's a Queen.  A woman who knows what she is doing, and isn't afraid to go after what she wants.  A kick ass bitch(she smiled when I typed that) type of woman.

She has a presence of an Ice Queen.  Though I sense, that is what she shows, while she watches you.  I also sense that she is very warm underneath.  Someone with that much passion, I can't see not having an inner warmth.

Crows, Ravens, Fae, Sex, Violence, and Law, are what I feel and see when I think of her.  Blood and primalness.

I respect and I am wary of her.  Wariness is not fear.  I however do not have the same close relationship and the ability to say what I will, that I do with Loki.

Loki

I originally was going to go all rawrrrrr on John Halstead post on privledge, but I got poked to do something else instead.

So here it is:

LOKI:

The Phoenix.  The raging fire.  The hearth fire.  The one who destroys, the one who fixes.  The Transmutable fire.  The shapeshifter.  The laughing God.  The sad God.  The one who loves deeply.

The fire of the furnace.  The fire of a wildfire.  The hot breath raging breath of a wildfire.

When I think of Loki, I think of a bonfire, or Fire.  The power and the wind and the roar.  That is the description that I am to portray of him.

My interaction with him is that of Dad.  I have a very close relationship with him.  I respect him.  I love him. I respect but don't fear him. I am often shaking my head bemused by him.  I also know, if I call on him, that I better be damn sure I am asking for the right thing, because he is CHANGE.

He has his own Honor.  He will use any tool at his disposal to get shit done.  That means he will lie and steal and do what he needs to get it done.  However he is very honest with me.

He is also very subtle in his lessons.  Some I don't even know I am doing, until I have done them and they have fixed me or made me face a fear.  He is not a deity for the light hearted.  Nor should he be trifled with.

He was among the other Gods, who poked me to go to Lightning across the Plains.  I was being to isolated. I needed to interact with others.  The kids needed to see a bigger Pagan gathering.  It was affordable.

The con to that, is I didn't feel like I belonged.  Because of the nature of the worshippers(who are very nice and good people), I kept my affiliations quiet.  Thus I could not be myself.  Plus, after having an autistic child for a while, 200+ people can be a bit overwhelming.  Me the extrovert felt more than a bit of an introvert and that I was in a hamster ball mewling.

I think I would do better at a smaller gathering.  But since the Troth allows toasting to Loki, I may join and see if there are more Loki friendly events.  I liked meeting the people.  I oddly felt closer to the more vanic worshippers as well(haven't figured that out).

I also need a place where I can let my son go, where I can relax.  Where he can be himself.  So a smaller venue would be better.

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Food and offering

I've been pondering.  Why do we stick to what the Gods supposedly ate in the past?  Cream and berries and honey for fey, Tuatha De Danaan and Celtic, interspersed with some meat foods.  Greek for Greek Gods? Why don't we branch out, using our UPG?

This pondering brought to you by fa la la latte.  I bought one today and took a sip and went mmmmmmmm. To which I got poked by the Morrigan, make me one.  Ok, I can do that.  Eggnog and espresso make the Fa La La Latte.  Simple even if it is not traditional.

If we humans like to explore other cuisines, why would the Gods not want to do so as well?  Ask them.  I think the only God I know that has some food taboos would be Asherah, and mostly she is hesitant about pork.  Other then that, I don't know of any of the Gods that have a food taboo or go Kosher.

Loki I know, likes many different foods.  He isn't afraid to try new things.  You also don't need to feed him copious amounts of hard liquor.  Though I am getting poked to try making some mead sometime in the near future.

As I type this, I see my cat drinking my left over oohlong tea.  smh.  I'm also getting poked to give Loki, Morrigan, and Cernunnos and The Goddess some apple cider.

Friday, November 22, 2013

Things I have to do and am being poked by the Gods about

I need to make a drum.  I have the drum kit.  I bought it from Centralia fur and hide.https://furandhide.com/products/categories/drum-kits  I just need the time, when I am not crazy from the children and life, to let the hide soak, and then put it on the drum.  Then I need to make a drum stick.

I need to make a mask.  I bought Lupas book http://www.thegreenwolf.com/skinspirits.html .  It had some very interesting stuff in it.  But I still need to learn a bit more taxidermy and wire shaping before that can come to fruition.  Plus as much as I'd like to get the coyote spirit that resides in it rainbow opals, those are not stones I can afford.

When I grumbled about making the two things above, I was told in no uncertain terms to stop my kvetching.  At least I didn't have to hunt down a buffalo, skin it, tan it for my spiritual equipment.  Needless to say I stopped kvetching. (I heard a mental sigh and was told for now. Feeling the love)

Loki wants me to make him something to.  I have statues and tapestries for Cernunnos.  I have a tapestry for the tree of life.  I even have a small one for the Morrigan).  I do not have any depictions of Loki(though I have a tatoo related to him on my body).  So he is poking me to make him one.  I need to get the architectural salt blocks.  I have bought the dremel tool, to carve into the blocks.