Thursday, May 21, 2015

feelings

Today is a day I understand why Morrigan cursed her husband for 7 generations.  I understand the rage.  sigh

Thursday, May 7, 2015

Primal and spirituality my first taste.

I said I was going to talk more about my beginnings in being Primal.  So the story I shall tell is my first animal that I got connected with.  I learned this as a beginning in astral projection.

In my dorm room, in yee olden days of college(when dinosaurs roamed and Merlin made stonhenge), I had a poster of a black panther.  I put it up, because it called to me.  It felt alive.  There was a spirit inside.  (side note, another way to make spirit allies and get protection)

I can't remember why I was astral projecting.  However I was for some reason.  I did my ritual, sat down and took on the persona of the Panther.  I was sleek, I was stealthy, and apparently my presence was felt.

Though I guess part of the lesson to learn, just because you see animals while in the spirit world, don't assume they can't be humans in the real world.  The astral and or spirit world, the form you take is only limited by your imagination.

Anyway, that first astral projection of Panther, was my first foray into being Primal.  Feeling the claws, and the speed.  The subtle stealth and blending into the night.

Being a Primal

My way of coming to Primal was through Paganism.  I didn't realize until recently that it is a subset ,and a fairly newly emerging one of Kink and BDSM. http://ironwynch.com/scrolls/2014/02/what-is-the-primal-fetish/  In, Fetlife, Primal play the animal within group. You will also find it in the Therian and Otherkin community. Lupabitch is a good source here http://therioshamanism.com/about/

Being a Primal, for me is about acknowledging my inner animals.  For me it's a spiritual, sensation and kinky, and emotional thing. This is a part of my soul that I express.

It's hard to put into words.  How do you express the oomph you feel, when you meet another Primal. How do you explain the feelings, the sensations, the smells, the ecstacy?

To find your animal, I would suggest Animal Speak by Ted Andrews.  Do some navel gazing and soul searching. What animals come to you, what do you "feel" like?  Do you have teeth, tail, hooves, claws?  Do you run and like to hunt, or hide in the shadows?

I knew who my Totem, or animal spirit(whiever political or non political term you choose) when I was younger.  It wasn't until my mid thirties that I realized this carried over into my sex life.  Nothing like figuring out oooh, I do like my hair pulled and wrestle play and oh Gods yes bite me and let me bite you.  (Yeah I'm a bit grumpy about that, I could have had fun for over a decade if I'd known sooner lol).

Primal is more than just glorified Klingon sex.  It's about going outside and smelling the honeysuckle, and feeling the sweetness down at the base of your throat.  Feeling the soft, prickly grass under your naked feet.  Growling as you nibble and bite your partners throat or chest, and hearing their sharp intake of passioned breath.

The soft intimate moments are a part of this as well.  Cuddles, feeling safe in my partners arms.  That sense of belonging.  Being spooned at night, and soft nuzzles and kisses.  

Primal is about tapping into that animal side, that we all have.  Feeling those instincts and listening to them.  For instance if you are a bear, do some wrestle play, but also play with warm honey and lap it off your partner.  Wolf primal, enjoy that steak, enjoy the smell of a grill while your mate bbq's and feeds you, whilst your cubs squeal, then nuzzle that mate and make them yours later on.  Enjoy the sound of his howling.

I need to think more on how this came into being for my spirtuality and how it also encompasses more than my sex life.  But I hope this helped people with questions.